Holding on to the past, that’s where I was up until a few weeks ago. After surgery I found myself on a constant hunt to find the pre-surgery me. I had settled into a daily ritual of comparing everything from where I was beforehand to the present. In every aspect from body to mind I felt behind.
It finally came to light when I put a competition progress picture together. It was that simple moment of seeing a picture that sent a “What am I doing? I don’t want to go backwards” thought racing through my mind. The obvious had been hidden from all the self-comparisons I was inflicting. I don’t want to be the pre-surgery me. I want to be better.
Granted I think it’s instrumental to remind myself of where I’ve come from but not to allow the past to set my parameters for today. Breaking the habit has been refreshing. To know I’m confronting a new set of challenges has me anticipating the future & I am excited about it.
I’ve said time & time again on posts that I actually have a hard time sharing my experiences. As more eyes see this blog I know I’m revealing more than I am comfortable with however I also know I’m not the only one that has let the past become a standard. Whether you’re holding onto pre-surgery, pre-pregnancy, something from 10 years ago or yesterday, if you can, let it go. It’s time to be better than ever before.