I find I still hold back. I’m confident in my abilities & proud of what I’ve accomplished yet I hug the shadows. It’s time for me to step out a little further. I have a lofty goal in mind & the only way it’s going to be obtained is by working for it & practicing what I believe, getting uncomfortable. My struggle, I’m not a “look at me” individual. I honestly appreciate those personality types it’s just that I enjoy being a part of the background, keeping a low profile while cheering for others. So why do I compete & blog, a sport where I step on stage with an auditorium full of people or a public site to share my thoughts & pictures. Because of the indescribable sensation that accompanies being healthy.
Everyone can feel this good. I have a divine romance with living this lifestyle that only intensifies as I move forward. The girl with low confidence & who always felt sluggish is in the past, a past I don’t want to revisit. I dedicated myself to change. The goal was to feel better, I conquered it, no, slaughtered it. What began with cleaning up my nutrition & walking, turned into a walk/jog & resistance bands next I ran several 5Ks escalating into duathlons. In 2011 I started competing as a figure athlete in the NANBF, a federation that I’m proud to be a part of. Five years ago I would have never imagined any of this possible.
As mentioned in previous posts I believe with all my heart that when you feel good it trickles into your environment. The further I step away from the shadows & allow my actions to be seen the more I hope those around me will peruse the brilliance inside them. A quote tattooed to my mindset, applying it to all facets of my life- “We must be the change we want to see in the world” Gandhi. I want to see a happy & health conscious environment… move over shadow.